"If I can" If I can stand up, despite the heavy feeling Without being weighed down By isolation and hiding behind the mask of working, Then maybe a smile will change this frown. If I can lift myself up Without pulling others with me when I fall, Then maybe I have my own backup And not be alone when I crawl. If I can join them in drinking, Maybe I can see myself again Without my body wanting a shift of closing, Maybe I can be their sister without pain. If I can chat up a storm Without overthinking the words and phrases Maybe the sentences will form A dialogue without phases. If I can write this poem Without tears falling down, Then maybe I can slowly show'em How I am still me, and is still. around.