To old me, How have you been little one? It's been a while since I last I checked up on you. A lot happened. I know. It's okay.  Don't bottle it up because it sucks. The feeling sucks, the feeling is shitty. Believe me it's better to cry it all out than not crying at all.  It's been a while huh? It's okay. I know. That heavy feeling in your chest will relieve. That zoning out moments will pass and that numb feeling will fade. I know. It's okay. We have our own story that I think you need to get through your head for you to understand. You will understand. It's okay. I know/ Remember the time when you first brought him home? The nerves he felt and yet you weren't even fazed? You weren't scared, you felt warm and light. You got to bring him home now. And ever since then it had become normal, to a point where he left pieces of him in your home. Your home. Ever since then, each picture you took was pinned up in your wall. All the whispers were rememb